4th June 2012;
Had a bit of a strange but good day today! The day started off being a bit depressing, as the majority of my photographs came down. My room doesn't even look like mine anymore, apart from a few possessions and posters. It looks more like a box. I remember on moving in day, as I first walked into my new room, I thought "oh my god, what a prison cell!" but it became more homely as the time went on. It'll surely take a lot longer to move out than it did to move in! Certainly not looking forward to packing up my belongings and sorting out the kitchen on Friday/Saturday. It's got to happen at some point though I guess.


Then, some other stuff started hitting me. For some reason, I woke up feeling quite alone today. But it's getting easier, because I know that i've got my friends. I know i'll always have people around me that I love. Yeah, i'll be on my own sometime, but I'm happy, and each day is getting easier step by step. I realised today that I don't need a man at the moment to be happy, i'd rather just fool around with a few and have a good time before settling down again, with someone who I trust 100%, and I'm properly happy with this time, not just an irrational decision like last time. I'm not going to get with anyone until I know they are the best thing for me, which is where i've been going wrong before. I think I mainly get with people out of pity. Yeah, I do normally fall for the person after a certain amount of time, but it's not someone who i've fallen in love with head over heels and 100%. I've loved people, but I don't think that i've been in love properly? Since i've always managed to get over people and stuff! All will come when the right person comes along :) So yeah, I'm happy and I'm alive... luckily,(the reason isn't even worth mentioning) that's all that matters at the minute!


The process of moving out is also hitting me more and more each day, because it's getting closer. The week is going very quick, but at least I'm spending it with two of my favourite people! We've already planned out the majority of our week :)but at the same time it's really sad! I've already started planning things out with my friends so things are looking good for the summer holidays! Looking forward to getting smashed at corp with my best friend on Monday, and seeing some of my favourite guys! ;)


I've also had a strange day in the sense of reading some things which I shouldn't have, from one of my best friends. It's made me feel rather bad, I had no idea of the extent of what he was going through, but he knows I love him to pieces and everything will be fine between us :) A bit of a roller coaster day it seems! But time to retire and watch tv and drink a cuppa with the remaining flat mates, in our amazing and shitting flat :P