"meh"

Every now and again, you have a "meh" day. There's really no other word to describe it, you just feel "meh". Most girls will know what I mean by this, but I know a few guys which also have these kind of days. You really have no idea why they happen. I mean, life is good and there's nothing to complain about really, but my body is still telling me that I'm having a "meh" day, so be it.

It sounds strange, but seeing Cheryl Cole on "This Morning" today made me slightly angry within, mainly because she's a blatant liar. Cheryl claimed that she always eats chocolate biscuits, sweets and chocolate. I'm sorry but do you really?! No offence love, but I could see your ribs because you were practically wearing no clothes. She might as well just tell the truth that she will probably have one chocolate biscuit a year otherwise she'd look just like the rest of us (normal) instead looking like a stick who needs a good meal. Not only is she lying, she's putting across an unhealthy message to women and young girls. Cheryl suggests she still looks thin even though she eats crap food, so surely young girls will think that it's okay to live an unhealthy lifestyle? No, just no. Celebrities just seem to annoy me. There is only a few which I actually admire, the ones with actual talent and real beauty. Cheryl is probably a factor which influenced my "meh" day, because she made me mad!

I can't seem to do anything right. I don't really think I have any special skills or anything which I'm really good at, which is quite sad really. I like taking photograph's, but everyone seems to be doing this these days, so I don't see much of an opportunity for myself there. I can draw, but A level art has put me off for a very long time because they've actually made me hate the subject, so I literally haven't drawn since. I'm doing English at university, but I don't really think that's a special subject either. I literally just picked it because I thought it could just about give me any job. I realise that I'm not painting a very good picture of myself, but I really don't know what I'm good at. There are some people which are good at absolutely everything, and I'm like how?! I want to be good at something! I'm hoping I'll figure it out at some point in my life, otherwise I'm a bit boring really.

I should really be starting university work as well. I've got so many books to read that I could actually create a library. Yet again, attitude towards university is "meh", I massively can't be bothered. It's strange because I love reading, but I don't like being told what to read. It makes me not want to read it. I just want to sit and read Harry Potter, not some old boring book which makes me feel asleep! Life is full of so many dilemmas.