Relationships.

In life, you will meet all sorts of people. Some of those people will just become acquaintances. The kind of person who you either nod at or say "hey" when you see them in the street, and that's all they will ever be in life. Your family are the one type of relationship which you are stuck with, there's no getting rid of them. As annoying as this can be, it's good to have some sort of security in your life. They can't really go anywhere, and if they do you'll always be blood related. There are the types of relationships which no longer exist, such as an ex or a friend you no longer have contact with. Yet at one point, this person meant something or everything to you, and they knew you inside out. It's a rather strange concept when you think about it, but life goes on and there are always new people making their way into your life.

Friendship is an entirely different sort of relationship. You can choose your friends, you pick who you become close to. You can tell this person anything without them being judgemental, or scarred for life. You choose to trust this person, and know that they will always be there for you. Life never seems to be boring when you're around them. There are people in my life who I know will be my friends for a long time, so in my eyes that's a pretty straightforward and simple relationship because I know they won't be going anywhere.

So, there's this one word which makes a simple relationship/friendship become incredibly complicated, you've got it, it's the L word. What happens when you start liking one of your best friends? Do they like you back, do you carry on as normal, do you tell them how you really feel or will it make things awkward? Suddenly, the relationship isn't so simple anymore. You start noticing them in another light, you smile when you think of them and always want to be in their company. You become jealous easily of other women around them, and you want them to be yours. You suddenly start to think "what the hell has happened to me?" Cupid has struck, and you're in a chokehold. 

I've never acted on any feelings towards male friends before, because I thought it was too risky. For some reason, this time was different. I partly knew there was something more between us, something more than just friendship. There was some sort of tension, kind of like I wanted to take him aside and jump on him. I had an urge that he felt the same. I went ahead and made my move, which luckily worked in my favour because he's know my boyfriend. The best thing about being with your best friend is you already know everything about them. There's no awkward phases, everything feels comfortable. I feel like I need him in my life because he's been around for so long now. I know it was the right thing to do, because each time we kiss it makes me think "why haven't we been doing this all year?". It took us a while, but we got there and we're happy. 

It doesn't always turn out with such a fairytale ending, but if you feel there is something more than friendship I recommend you try it. You never know, you might end up living happily ever after.